I Am Considering Putting Myself Out There Again...
Perhaps it is time to revisit an old hobby in a new way...plus I spent all that money on the microphone and equipment...maybe...just maybe...
I have been feeling brave lately.
I reached out to my old friend that hurt me, I asked that she step away from what we had created and just started her own thing. She didn’t respond.
I have a part of me that is hurt, but the bigger part, the part I am focusing on, feels…accepting. I don’t think any response could have really meant anything to me, unless there was an apology or explanation. But to say nothing…just shows true colors. I will leave it at that.
The little project that we did was my podcast. I had this idea back last May before she ghosted me that I thought I should kind of take over the podcast and allow her to focus solely on our YouTube. I think a part of me knew even then that we were not aligning and she was not right for me. Anywho, instead I was shut out and she took our baby and ran with it. Still is running from what I hear, albeit much slower.
Sending the email to her, it gave me a bit of a reminder of who I am. It reminded me that I was, I am a half of everything that show is. No matter what success it brings, I will always be a piece of that. I think I also felt a bit better to know, I was the bigger person. I reached out. I was kind and I tried.
She did not respond. I’ll let you decide what that means her to be.
Ever since sending her that email I have been thinking, what if I just did my own thing? My own podcast. I have all of the equipment. I learn all about the editing and everything. And, not to brag, but I have been told I have a lovely voice and that my thoughts are…good. Maybe I am crazy and no one will listen, but if that’s the worst thing, that no one listens, but I am creating? That works with me.
Creating is the only way through this life.
So coming to you soon to a Podcast platform near you (right here on Substack) will be the “Humor Me” podcast!
Keep your ears peeled<3
As always, thank you for being here, reading and supporting my work. To exist in this online world today I cannot do so without bringing attention to the atrocities existing throughout our worlds. The fires in LA began just a couple of days ago and I will be attaching some donation links to assist those displaced by the fires as well as the immigrants and prisoners fighting the fires, and liking rebuilding after.
I also must point out that no word has been given about Dr. Hussam Abu Safiya, director of Kamal Aswan Hospital in North Gaza. His mother passed away of a heart attack just a few days ago and will never know the fate of her son, a hero. Below is a link to locate your representatives. I urge you to make phone calls and send emails asking them to intervene. Especially as Tr*mp prepares to take office.
Also you will find links to multiple GoFundMe’s for those effected by the genocide in Gaza. Donate, share, do what you can.
Be grateful for all you have in this world and hold your loved ones tight.
GoFundMe to Help Save Wafa and Her Family
GoFundMe to Save Munir and Her Family
GoFundMe to Help Save Hany and His Family
GoFundMe to Help with Fadi's Son's Medical Expenses
GoFundMe to Help Save Mohammad and hHis Family
GoFundMe to Help Save Bsmala and Her Family
GoFundMe to Help Save Aya and Her Family
Operation Olive Branch's One-Click Email Campaign
Code Pink's Petition To Release Dr. Abu Safiya
i haven't read your works for some time, but PLEASE do know that your posts always bring me a sort of comfort. i'm sure your voice being lovely is correct, because your writing voice is equally lovely <3 I'm definitely going to find time to listen to your podcast x) have a lovely day!