A Month of Reflection: Day Eleven
Yesterday we covered how according to me, God is everything in everyone always and everywhere. Today I would like to tell you about how I believe all people have access to magic!
If you have been reading my writing for any period of time maybe you are starting to think, “Dear god, this lady is quite insane”, fair. I haven’t be reading these posts anymore, for no reason other than that I am trying to simply allow myself to build this 1,000 words a day habit without judgement. So I think there has been a loose connection between all of these pieces, but I know that we’ve talked about a lot over the past eleven days.
I have yet to get into my more radical and controversial beliefs, but we will dip our toes today. I believe every single person in this world, when given the proper tools, security, love and surroundings can create immense magic. A divine and unexplainable magic. It’s in all of us.
Perhaps I am just a bit delusional, but I believe in you. I believe in myself, I always have. Even when I was shy and afraid to be myself in the real world, I was able to know in my mind, if I did, I could. I am the personified Little Engine that could. I think what keeps it from being insanely narcissistic is that I believe that everyone else can too. Truly.
I think the magic is in us
I know the magic is within us, the magic is God, that creation energy, the life energy, the reiki. I know that we all have access to it because I can look into the eyes of any being and witness it, the glimmer of beyond. It isn’t exclusive to humans either, my pup Stella is a deeply magical dog, she just uses it to manifest more treats and belly rubs.
I want to stress this part about magic: it is as much as gift as it is a choice. It is within us, but I think it takes our own consciousness finding it and connecting to it to be able to harness it. The hard part of that is, you have to want to. It doesn’t just happen.
The journey to finding your magic looks vastly different from everyone else around you. It is your unique venture into your own unknown. It requires not only healing and patience, but acceptance. Acceptance of one self, one’s environment, one’s condition and one’s existence. Once you achieve this trifecta of self love, your possibilities are endless.
Magic is kind of a loose word here for what I mean. I think some one call it will, some may say creativity, others motivation. It is indefinable to be honest. I think it looks different for each of us. Not people find their magic or experience their magic the same way. See the magic of the magic is that it becomes what you need when you need it. That’s why you need to simply just trust it. I’ve stopped being specific with my manifestations beyond: peace and simplicity. All that will come to me within those bounds is all I can accept right now.
Some people’s magic exists as their academic abilities. Others it may be in a professional capacity where they are able to cultivate a connection to that divine energy. People find their magic within the pages of the Bible, or inside of a church. There is no one way to use it or to find it.
I find my magic sometimes lying in bed on my heating pad, weighted blanket holding me, eye mask on. I dive deep within my mind, to the centers of self within. In there I am able to find the purest form of it. Sometimes I dive in and just grab a couple sprinkles to take with me back into the real world. The magic is different here than it is in there.
In my mind it is a flowing pool of energy, emitting a white light. Almost like a neon stream flowing. It isn’t a solid, liquid or gas. It isn’t even worth trying to define. Like I said I will bring a little out with me and carry it throughout my day. Using it to guide and protect me as I need.
Sometimes I use it to create a unique meal for my family, sometimes I use it here, to write to you. Sometimes my magic isn’t for me, sometimes I see someone who needs it more. Something I love about myself is my ability to share magic. I often feel I am a better magic sharer, than bearer. I think that’s part of the reason I was called to receive my reiki training, I think I knew on a level my magic was meant to be shared. When you have some to spare, you should always share. Lots of rhymes today.
I wonder if we gate kept magic too much. We made it seem too unattainable, we allowed society to forget that is an innate ability within us, not a fairy tale. It’s easy to think that it isn’t real because real magic isn’t perfect. It is messy, it is imperfect. It requires you to trust the process. It isn’t easy; letting the magic do its thing. It takes so much self control at times.
It’s there though. It is in you. I promise.
How could I possibly know? Because if it is in, I promise it is in everyone.
I am…nothing special. I am simply the most average human in the world. I am not putting myself down, I actually say that with quite a bit of pride. I think I have done a very good job being a very middle of the pack, well rounded being. I know when I need help, I know my capabilities. I am me. I make a lot of mistakes. I have hurt people, lied and cheated. But here I am, a magical being.
If you can exist in the way I did in my early twenties…if you can live that selfishly, that recklessly and still…find the magic, then it is in us all.
I don’t how to be a proud humble person. Is that an oxymoron? It shouldn’t be, I am proud to have fucked up as much as I have, because I’ve learned from every fall, and I’ve learned even more from the climb back up. I feel like people need to talk about the stuff more. How we love ourselves and each other, through all the shit. How we grow and change.
Something I have learned in my almost thirty years of this life is that others aren’t always going to cheer for you for being a good person, so I am sure to cheer for myself.
Thank you for being here and reading what I write. It is something I am not sure I will ever totally get used tom the idea of strangers reading my words. I never…thought myself worthy of that space. Thank you for showing me that I am. That we all are. Everyone has a story, an existence. Right now millions of existences are fighting to get to continue, millions of lives are at stake. Below are so links to places you can make an impact in different ways. Thank you so much for your time. Be kind, be you.
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